All the Small things

All the, small things
True care, truth brings
I'll take, one lift
Your ride, best trip

Always, I know
You'll be at my show
Watching, waiting, commiserating

Say it ain't so, I will not go, turn the lights off, carry me home
Na, Na.......

Late night, come home
Work sucks, I know
She left me roses by the stairs
Surprises let me know she cares

Say it ain't so, I will not go, turn the lights off, carry me home
Na, Na......

Say it ain't so, I will not go, turn the lights off, carry me home
Keep your head still I'll be your thrill, the night will go on, my little
redmill
Say it ain't so, I will not go, turn the lights off, carry me home
Keep your head still, I'll be your thrill, the night will go on, the night will
go on, my little redmill

The idea that work sucks! It does or at least my job does. Or at least I am totally bored out of my mind and fed up with dealing with people who I will surpass in life. Yes one of my bosses was being a jerk. Not only that but I felt that my co-workers were leaving me to do all the work. So I want to quit. I just don't know when. I am hoping to get a job with theatre and working with kids. I have a real knack with dealing with kids. They have so much energy and respect for you.

I am tired of dealing with construction workers and their attitudes. It's like dealing with kids except they swear you or talk dirty to you. I can't stand that anymore. So I am looking.

Gearing up for school

Well I have work today but I decided I have to get some of the scholarships search done. I am listening to my current favourite cd. James Blunt back to Bedlam. I love the melodic sound coming from my stereo. It's soothing and sad at the same time. I think it's great because it brings something to the table about life.

I had a dream in which I lost my way to the church and ended up somewhere in the city. Then I met up with a friend from tour. She was following her dream and I was telling her how I hated my life because it was boring, ordinary again.

I woke up.

I didn't understand it. But who understands life anyway.

Mae

Dream Big

Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorius triumphs, even though checkered by failure... than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat.
Theodore Roosevelt

This is a really great quote because it really inspires me to dream bigger dreams, to reach higher stars, and to go where no one has dared to go.

Miss Mae

Finding love??

Some days I don't know why I do it but I do. I want love to happen but then I get impatient waiting because it takes to long to show. I know that love takes time and it needs to grow. I just don't know when.

I guess the waiting is making me nervous. Sometimes I go after the bad boy and I think why in the world am I doing that? I go for the guys I know that will only end in heart ache. I think it's because I am trying to sabatage my own love life because I am scared to really fall in love. I don't think I have been in real love with any guy.

I got my blood test done today. I had to have it done to get my levels checked so I can go and get my shots.

Oh well

This is James Blunt. There is something about his deep eyes, his messy hair that makes a girl go crazy for him. Not only that is that he can sing awww what a cutie and he's from England so he has a rocking accent. 

You're Beautiful

I just read an article about James Blunt in the newspaper today. I think I am in love with him. Or at least the song. It's so pretty and tragic at the same time. Sort of like Romeo and Juliet. I love this quote though "The song is is about seeing someone and connecting with their eyes and for that one moment, that one millisecond in time, living your entire life with them."

So romantic
Miss Mae

Missing something

I went to work. Nothing special. Like most days as of late. Nothing. It feels that my crazy adventured life has become dull and non-existent. Except for meeting people on-line I feel that it's just become ordinary and that scares me.

I am getting bored of this and I can't wait till school starts this fall. It's something I am looking forward to. It's something great I am anticipating, back to drama.

Well there is lot's of stuff happening but nothing as my life on tour. I am trying to not to think about the pass as much. I am trying not to look to much toward the future but it's hard to live the mundane life of the present.

I had my young adult group yesterday. It felt that everyone was quiet except me and this other guy. It's like I know the answers and feel like an idiot because I do. I went through the motions of today trying to find something that would amuse me. Nothing, just nothing.

I fwd an e-mail, wondering if it will really play out any significant role in my life. I doubt it. I don't really believe in that sort of fwd the e-mail may your wish come true stuff, since I didn't do it in a long time I thought might as well.

My co-workers think I should not meet people on-line. Some how I am not going to listen to them. I don't know what it is about meeting people. Perhaps I feel that they won't judge me through the computer than in real life.

I don't know what I am searching for or what I am missing.

Mae

Mirrors

Is it me, or can this be a dream.
A reflection of me.
Unknown, lost to some degree.
A broken heart for you to come rescue me.
Falling down, broken knee.
What you have is what you see.
Is the image reflected a true reflection of me?

Why do I keep searching for something I already have?
What am I looking for, something beyond bad.
Is my heart tied up for you to fill the void.
Or am I looking for something to destroy?

Is the emptiness really me or am I just waiting for a dream.

It's 2:04pm on any given day, do you know what your eating?

Why do I have such strange title? Because I do. It's a bit scary to see how life is moving faster than I would like. The mission trip is only under 2 months away, I haven't gotten my shots yet so there is need to be worried.

I got accepted into school. I am bit scared since I haven't been in school for 3 years and the whole process is daunting. This is something I have been wanting to do. Anyway I have to get ready for that meeting. I have so much to do and so little time off.

anyway God bless ya
Miss Mae