Sunday

Today was like most days, getting up is the first step to surviving the day. I went to church today and focused on what God was trying to say to me. I don't know exactly what that was but I was there.

It later occured to me while at home in the silence of the room that I wanted to visit my grandmother today. She is suffering a lot and it brings me to tears to see her suffer. If I could do something I would but I don't think there is anything I can do.

Anyway it brings sadness to my heart.

When I got home they had the Natalie Grant song that I liked. I never knew it was a really sad song.

Here are the lyrics.

Held – Natalie Grant
Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.
Who told us we’d be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?

We’re asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It’s unfair.

Chorus:This is what it means to be held.How it feels when the sacred is torn from your lifeAnd you survive.This is what it is to be loved.

And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.
This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred NUMB our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.How it feels when the sacred is torn from your lifeAnd you survive.This is what it is to be loved.And to know that the promise wasWhen everything fell we’d be held.Bridge:If hope is born of suffering.If this is only the beginning.Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.How it feels when the sacred is torn from your lifeAnd you survive.This is what it is to be loved.And to know that the promise wasWhen everything fell we’d be held.