I want to cry but big girls don't so I am going to blog instead

The past days have made me more and more just hate my life. I don't know why. Maybe it's because the nagging feeling that I should be doing something else with it, or the fact that I want to be acting and I am not. The very heart of me wants to escape but I have nothing to really escape from.

I mean the job is not bad, and the people are great, the pay is good and it's only for a month but I feel like I am in a desperate situation in which my own life feels like a prison. I have nothing really to complain about except the nagging feeling in which my own existence has become meaningless and serves no purpose. I am not needed by anyone really, I am replaceable and will be replaced......so I guess I feel I don't belong because I believe that I belong some where else but where??

This year will be hard because for the first time in 3 years I will be in one spot. Home or the place I have to call home even though it doesn't feel like it.

I guess I just got to face the reality that everyone has to work but I sometimes think maybe that there is a place I will find happiness in doing what I do best.

That's just a quick summary.

Mae