Feeling left out and far in the field

So I am not sure how to respond to today. I kept feeling like I am so isolated in the department. It's like I don't fit in. I feel like I am looking into a new world but I can't enter. I don't mind being me but it's hard when everyone else treats you like you are different breed of pedigree. You sometimes wonder what is wrong with you.

I won't cry over this. Too many times people have tried to make me like them and I won't allow it. I know who I am and I love who I am. I don't need someone to tell me who to be. Who cares if I don't know about a lot of the sexual intends, does knowing it make my life better? Why should I worry about a sex life? When I am ready for that my husband and I can learn together. If you learn everything now, what’s left to explore?

Anyway I might switch to another school. God this one's up to you.

Mae