Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with eyes wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with eyes wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, yeah, yeah

So true

T.V. world does not exist

You ever watched Sex in the City, or Friends or any show about a bunch of people living their t.v. land life and come to the conclusion that, their life could never happen in real life?

I mean who has time for relationships, shopping at high end stores, and all this free time when they just don't really seem to work. Real life has too many stresses for that sort of thing to happen. Especially the relationship parts. Now that most of my friends are leaving for the rest of their university life, I am stuck here trying to face going back to school with the end all result of making new friends. I haven't had to make a real new friendship in the longest time. All my best friends have grown up with me. They are all workaholics like me. They understand that sometimes life gets too busy to meet every other weekend but they know that I truly care deeply about them that if they ever really needed me there I would be there in a flash.

Even my friends on tour. I mean if it wasn't for the fact that we were bonded over the course of 3-4 months I wouldn't have been able to develop the relationships that would survive.

How does one go about making new friends when her life is like going on like the tea cup ride at Disney Land and it keeps spinning ever so fast that you don't have time to stop and breathe. I does one include a healthy social life when you are surrounded by committees and want to develop a balance healthy lifestyle in which you are contributing to saving the world by all your means?

I wonder if Super man was ever lonely. I don't think he had much of a social life trying to save the planet. I mean at the rate crimes are committed he would probably neglect his wife, golf buddies and family as well as his dear friends.

I can just picture it. Superman comes home from his regular work hours as a reporter and if that's not time consuming I am not sure what is. The guy is about to eat supper with his family when he gets a call. Sorry hun I have to run. Or what about poker night with the boys...I have to fold this one because I can't continue playing boys I have some criminals to catch.

How am I supposed to have a life when my life is busier than that on tour? I don't even have time to just sit and think my deep thoughts like I use to. It's either sleep or do the things that got side tracked. What about my relationships? I mean how is a guy supposed to get to know me when I am off flying here and there like a bee. I guess there is no such hope.

There was the one time when I was in Cambodia. Life seems quieter at times. I felt I had more hours to think. People were my priority and that's all. I miss that.

Oh the life of Mae

Pictures from the fun times I've had during summer.

It's been a long time

Well here it is, a few weeks before I head back to school. It's been a while since I've written a paper. Wow things have changed so much in life but I guess that's how it's suppose to be. I have finally decided to move on with my life. I've given up on meeting Mr. Right. I suppose he's somewhere saving the world and that's ok. Superheros don't make great boyfriends ;), they make great super heros though.

Fall is coming and I guess you can say it's the begining of something new. All my friends have left to continue their master programs. I'm left finding new friends in the city. Life changes. People move on. It's all about rediscovering who you are and what you can do with your life's worth. Who knows where we will all be in a few years.

Last night I said good bye to a few friends. They are leaving for school in the fall. Two years baby and we'll all see whats going to happens to us. I remember last year around this time I was so heart broken to be working in the hardware store. I wanted so much to be back in school. This is it. After 3 years of finally making the choice to go back here I am. In a few weeks I will be starting school. Nervous as heck!

So time flys by, you learn more about life. You discover more. Things happen. All you can do is grab the bull by the horns and ride it out.

Beat ya,
Meet ya
See ya.
It's all about the drum hits and misses of life.
Love Mae