Just finish the last show and now it's christmas anxiety

So we just wrapped up the run for the Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe. It was great to work on the make-up team. I had some fantastic help. I was a little bit stress, but now that the show is done I can focus on getting my Christmas shopping done.

The problem is, is that I'm broke due to my lack of unemployment and I have to work with a small budget if I want to get my boyfriends family anything. So I'm a little stress. On top of that, I just have a lot of things to get done but not a lot of time to do it in.

Last night after the show, I was a bit of a train wreck. I love my boyfriend, but I wonder if our different beliefs in faith will come between us.

It's hard because I want to be able to share my faith but I don't want to push anything on him. That will only push him away. At the same time, I don't want to lose my own faith in the process. His family is what I want in future in-laws and he would make a great father one day. At the same time I question whether I would be able to raise children where the father doesn't believe in God.

My moral situation I suppose. I'm confuse a lot lately about trying to keep my life together but there are days when I just want to fall apart at the seams.

Anyway I need to get back to writing a more consistent blog. Writing helps me organize my own thoughts on a day to day.

Love always,
Miss Mae