Finding a piece of me

"Surrender" ~Barlow Girl~

My hands hold safly to my dreams
Clutching tightly not one has fallen
So many years I've shaped each one
Reflecting my heart showing who I am
Now you're asking me to show
What I'm holding oh so tightly
Can't open my hands can't let go
Does it matter?
Should I show you?
Can't you let me go?

Surrender, surrender you whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can't you see?
My dreams are me. My dreams are me

You say you have a plan for me
And that you want the best for my life
Told me the world had yet to see
What you can do with one
That's committed to Your calling
I know of course what I should do
That I can't hold these dreams forever
If I give them now to You
Will You take them away forever?
Or can I dream again?

God now I finally am surrending the dream I had. I have given up the first guy I have ever loved fully unto your hands. It hurts to see him fallen from you. I know that you have to work in his heart. Please take care of him. Love him gently because it hurts not to be with him. It's hurts to give up the dreams I had. It hurts because of all the I wishes, the what ifs, but I know I have to surrender for your plans are better than my own. Your wisdom is greater than my understanding.